My recollections from a Saturday night where i went too far.......
Saturday Morning-7am. I woke up and it took me about 10 minutues to actually remember what day it was and what I was doing that day. I was rather suprised to feel depressed that morning because I was so excited to be going away for the weekend.
Maybe I was like that because of a dream I had that made me think it was mid week still?
I eventually dragged my ass out of bed and got ready.
8:45am-I got on the bus from Sydney to Canberra where i spent the usual incredibly boring 3 and a half hours not doing much at all.
12:45 ish pm - Bus arrived in Sydney Central a few minutes late. I then proceeded to the nearest YHA and tryed to get accomodation there, a few days off being 18 I was not allowed to stay there.
Down the road to the next backpackers but they only had a private room available.
Where to go next?
1pm-I made the smart desicion to head to my usual place near Town Hall but I was worried about if I would make it to the Herman's Bar by 2pm for Deez Nuts.
I managed to get a bed at my usual place. I head upstairs and orginised my stuff, went downstairs only to reaslise I didn't have my smokes so went back up to get them.
1:40ish pm- I jumped on a bus to The University of Sydney only to have a rude lady tell me to move over and gave me shit about how she was getting off in two stops. At this point I am reminded of how rude people are in Sydney and how I would much rather be in Melbourne.
1:50ish pm- I got off the bus near the Manning Bar not having the slightest clue where the Herman's Bar was I started to wander around hoping for the best.
2pm- Found a group of randoms that weren't as friendly as they could have been but hey that's Sydney for you right? I asked them if they knew where it was but they weren't too sure either. I followed behind them to find the bar just across the road.
2:10 ish pm- I realised that I didn't have a lighter and was already annoyed because I had nothing else to do but wait and smoke.
2:15ish pm- Found some nice people from up the coast who were smoking and I got a light off them.
2:30pm- Wondering if they were ever going to open the doors it was pissing down rain everyone was pretty damn cold and bored.
They eventually opened the doors and it was one of the best gigs I have been to this year so far.
When Deez Nuts came on everyone went crazy as you do, the stage was only tiny with no barrier or anything which makes it much more fun. Heaps of people got up on the stage and we were all moshing around with JJ up on the stage (not much room to move really!).
Some time after 6pm- Started to head back to Town Hall.
Got back to my room, orginised my stuff. Took my half empty bottle of Vodka and headed to Luna Park for Opeth.
Drank some of the vodka before leaving the doorm room.
In the Lift some guys from the Bar came in with a tray full of Shots and offered everyone in the life one.
So me being the crazy girl I am I had one not really knowing what it was.
Went to Town Hall and bough a train ticket using a $20 note (trying to figure out where all my money went).
Got 16.40 change.
6:40ish pm- Got off the train at Milson Point and walked to Luna Park, on the way bought a $2 lighter from some conveinience store.
6:50ish pm- went to the bathrooms and with an empty stomach I sculled the rest of my Vodka.
Not sure how much was in there atleast 6+ standard drinks left (one of those half sized 11 drinks Smirnoff bottles).
Had some smokes and started to feel very out of it. I didn't care what anyone thought of me at that point.
Went to the bar and tryed to by a drink (can only just remember this).
Got out my money but she asked for my ID. Of course you would coz I look like 14 even though I am actualy 17 going on 18.
I pretended to look for my ID and made it look like I had forgotten it.
I am glad that I did not get a drink because the Vodka hadn't really hit me then.
7pm- The Doors were open and I headed inside. This was a sold out event, I actualy wish I had tried to sell my ticket rather than go in. But maybe I wouldn't have recieved the help I needed when I did.
Inside things are just a blur. I bought a Fanta drink (cost $4.20) and I sat down.
I was so dizzy when I was sitting down everything was moving. I could hear a band playing but I was too fucked to get up, I couldn't really walk or stand up.
I felt like hell, like I was on drugs again. I didn't want to be like that.
I tryed to get up and I walked into the foyer area.
I recognised Rach standing there are went up to her. She knew me so it was obviously her.
I remember her saying "I didn't expect to see you at Opeth" and then I remember saying "I am so smashed" whilest I was hugging her.
I can then remember her saying "Your'e always so smashed at Concerts".
Then I think she took my fanta and and I think I then stumbled into the First Aid and said "I Feel really sick".
I was handed a throw bag and spewed as soon as I got it.
My Time in the first aid is a huge blur.
They tryed to give me water but I don't think I was keeping it down, i threw Up alot.
I can remember one of the Voulenteer St. Johns girl asking me if I wanted to go see Opeth when they came on but I don't remember answering her. I think I keep falling asleep on them because they weren't too worried about me. One of them said something about security kicking me out if I was falling asleep.
I remember saying back to them but what if your'e really sick and he just said they would leave the person there on a stretcher.
I was still very dizzy and not getting better, I could hear Opeth playing but I didn't care.
Time went by so fast in there, I can remember them saying something about taking me to a Paramedic that was there for someone else.
They got a wheelchair and took me to the Ambulance.
I can remember them saying something about me fainting a lot and not getting any better.
Sometime After 11pm- Before I knew it I was in an ambulance on the way to a Hospital.
In the Emergency Room I didn't really want to be there.
The Nurse who was treating me was a bitch just because I was there for Intoxication.
The first few hours are a blur, before I knew it I had a drip in my arm.
I could feel it go through my veins it was icy cold.
I remembering listening to what they were saying about me but I don't actualy remember what they said.
They moved me to Emergency Treatment and I spent the rest of my time in there.
Sunday Morning-Around 6am.
I asked why i was still being kepted there. I was told I had to wait for a Social Worker and a Drug ad Alchohol reveiw.
Hours past untill around 11:30am I had a mental health worker come and talk to me.
They asked me if i would consider detox. I wish i was asked that a year ago when I really needed it!
With a few lies I managed to get out of there and on my way back home.
Have I learn't a hard lesson about drinking? I'm actually not sure right now.
Will I ever drink again? Well atleast I wont scull that much Vodka on an empty stomach.